我的第一年的毕业生生活并不好玩。我面临工资盗窃，医疗害怕，不适当的安排婚姻提案，以及我生命中最伊斯兰恐惧症的情况之一。在几个月的过程中，最后一次经历发生在我的一个工作中。我尽我所能地说话。我一再做了，一再，我被忽略了。它真的让我质疑我的价值。Luckily, now that I’ve been laid off due to COVID, I’m using my talents as a writer to slowly rebuild the self-love that I lost to that Islamophobic situation, and I’m doing that with my favorite sidekick in mind—my younger self!

较年轻的Sidikha被爱to collect stickers. Teachers would put stickers on our homework, and it boggled my mind that people threw those stickers out. You don’t throw out your trophies! So I collected my stickers in a notebook, that is until my family “accidentally” threw the notebook out. But that notebook was so cool. Its cover was red and made out of the holographic material that shines differently depending on the angle at which you hold it. I felt like a mini intellectual whenever I opened it. “Stocks? What are those? Let’s talk about this sticker on page three: an unamused dinosaur next to an erupting volcano? There’s a story here!!!”

2020年，哈纳，我的小妹妹，买了我的小，多彩多姿的星形贴纸，由类似的全息材料制成。当她把它们递给我时，美好的回忆赶回来了，血清素也是如此！这些贴纸带给我这样的快乐，所以我决定在我生命中使用新笔记本。

在这个笔记本中的写作已成为我最喜欢的活动。我称之为“追逐灵感的兴奋”。追逐灵感的兴奋包括爆炸电视，写作有关对我来说意味着很多的时刻的笔记，并获得灵感，然后写出驯服令我兴奋的想法。如果这个想法很好，我把Hana的一个贴纸放在它旁边，表示我应该脚本下一个想法。

For example, I was watching the South Korean seriesWhen the Camellia Blooms在一个点，在一个点，沧海（儿子Dam-Bi）对Dong-Baek（Gong Hyo-Jin）表示，“如果我们有机会过住另一个生命，我想像你一样生活。”这条线破坏了我，但我不会给剧透。

它让我思考,“等。我认为有a very close Muslim equivalent to that line.” I tried to figure it out in my notebook. Muslims don’t believe in reincarnation, but they do believe in the afterlife in heaven, as well as the pre-life period called “the realm of souls.” To put it simply, souls that vibe during the realm of souls also vibe in their time on Earth, which is why you might meet someone for the first time, but feel like you’ve known them for years. In regard to heaven, Muslims often casually mention to each other their grand hopes. From something silly like, “I hope I get to jet ski there every day,” to something sentimental like, “I hope you and I are neighbors in paradise.” I decided the latter is a close Muslim version of Hyang-mi’s line. There’s a lot of neighborly love in Muslim afterlife discourse. I then started thinking of other possible permutations of that line regarding the realm of souls and ancestors. Next thing you know, I had a couple of pages of different beautiful things a Muslim character might say or do when discussing their hopes for the future. There are stickers scattered throughout. If I flip through the pages, the stickers shine like shooting stars, making me feel marvelous.

然而，有时候，我仍然被我在工作中遭受的伊斯兰恐惧症困扰着。有助于我记住我在笔记本中写道的不同场景。一个年轻人走在当前我的地方，谁感觉毫无价值。她看着我所经历的一切，所有的勇气和耐心。然后低语，“你为我做了这一切吗？”我点头。她回应了，“我从来没有想过任何人会为我而战。… 我真的很爱你。”魔术词 - 隐藏的自爱锁积。然后她拥抱我和惊呼，“看看所有这些明星!!!” They’re my stickers, and suddenly plants grow beside my ideas. My determination to be heard reblooms right before our eyes. Younger me says, “Hey, I think this might be a good sign.”